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In a small corner

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A few months ago a sequence of event started with the loosing of my mobile. Thou it might seem like an insignificant event, but some how it has led to where i m now, literally in a small corner. As it happens the literal translation of the name of our village means “a small corner”. That is kind of a joke that life has played. Back in gujarat i was a happy guy, with friends, booze and adventure. And now i have been cornered in this uneventful place. Before the loss of the mobile i was stable, til then i didnt make up my mind to move to my village but some how the loss of mobile unbalanced my whole life. That event disturbed the whole sequence, when i realized that the number that i thought to be permanent was just temporary which lead to further realization that my existence there itself is temporary because i will have to move back eventually, i needed a permanent address and i realised the earlier i move its better for me, i will get more time to get used to a new place and build the base.I couldnt manage without a sense of permanancy, i felt every thing i will be doing back there will be temporary.

After reaching here everyone said you will get the internet connection in a day or two, thats what the normal time it takes, but i always knew something unusual will happen in my case, and i was right, it took 1 and a half month, but at the end the connection has been satisfactory. As i always say the things that makes you wait ends up much better than the things that you get in an instance, and it has been always like this with me. Every fucking thing that happens normally to other people, in my case it always takes a different route. 
My whole life has been kind of inverted, i always took the other way, i wont credit the unusual decisions to myself but those decisions happened automatically. I just couldnt take the normal path. When everyone had a straight path my path was all ulta pulta. When people did this i did that, as a person i have been a total mismatch in every aspect of my life. 
And eventually when everyone migrates to city, i had to migrate to a village. This itself sums up the inverted path the life has taken. From here where it will go, i have no idea, i hope it doesnt go towards a jungle and i become a sanyasi. 
If you ask me how life is here i would term it as pretty boring, i was not able to gel with people here, there certainly are some people who could be befriended but owing to my introverted nature i have been unable to make some good friends, i generally take a lot of time to open up. Atleast a six months of constant contact is needed before i can actually start behaving like a normal person. As you can see i m not too proud of my introverted ways, and have always considered it as path ka roada in the way of having fun, obviously one cant have fun alone.
I have been lonely here, till recently i had to go to town for accessing internet so that was a time pass, i liked the bus journey, i would  go for a beer then with light nasha do my work. Thou it drained me financially but it was kind of time pass. In the past 2 months i have been drinking alone at bar, in noon. In bar one can drink alone because there are lots of tight people and watching them is a good time pass, so didnt feel too lonely, but some company would have helped, often watching other guys drinking in a group would remind me of my days back there. But that was supposed to be temporary and i kind of always knew, so it didnt effect a bit when i came here, moreover since i have been coming here frequently, the change was smooth as this was not exactly a new place for me.
Business has been no good, for the first time i m already in huge debt, within a period of 2 months i piled on around 2 lacks of debt, the new venture is bleeding me through all the holes. But i consider it as a good sign, bad needs to happens for good. Its something that i totally believe in. Every time when things go wrong, we try to think differently to find a solution, and that exactly when inventions are made, as they say necessity is the mother of all inventions.
My primary concern here is about mixing with the people, though i have spent a good amount of time alone just sitting in a room without meeting or talking to any one and it has taught me a  lot but i think its kinda waste of time, one shouldnt waste life like that, there are lot of things to experience and basically we are supposed to have fun.
The thing that i noticed is that my writing style has changed, it has kind of become boring. I dont know but something has happened, i dont get uncommon thoughts these day, thoughts are just plain and simple. Seems like something is missing, like everything has got diluted or something..
Hoping to have interesting times ahead.
P.S. It has to be long because this is going to be a reference in future about how i felt about this change. Also  things are not going to be as usual from this point, i just feel that way.. something has really changed in me..

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Written by maya

December 10, 2010 at 10:43 pm

Posted in personal diary

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  1. very true ..i notice @ ch@nge too …in your writing n m@y be in your life @s well …its like @s if the w@ves h@ve died down ..but keep writing 🙂

    vicious

    December 11, 2010 at 12:01 am

  2. There are very few people who can stay positive even in bad times, you are certainly one of them who can light at the end of the tunnel.Delays are something even I have seen and something that I don't enjoy a lot.Hope things will become steady for you. Take care

    The Survivor

    December 11, 2010 at 1:17 am

  3. @vici yeh will keep writing, lets see how things shape up@survivor.. i m actually a negative guy, those are just my weird reasons which sounds positive

    Uncommon Sense

    December 11, 2010 at 1:30 am

  4. I have started following u now. And U r a blogger with whom people can connect heart.. Even if u feel that u have started writing abt boring materials.. people will connect wid u and wait for your recovery.. and dont worry u will not turn into a sanyasi. haha… U will be fine.. try to be out of introversion.

    AbhiLaSH RuHeLa

    December 12, 2010 at 1:26 am

  5. Definitely a change man…i guess we all go through it. Maybe it's a phase, it will pass, you will start getting weird thoughts again. Just stick to what you do. And being introvert is not a bad thing, you just have to realize that people are tools, and you have to use them without getting attached to them.Take care!N

    Nothingman

    December 15, 2010 at 3:08 am

  6. woah dude..welcome 2 kerala..goc…hows it?its nice 2 c ur profile pic of vadakkunokkiyantram film scene i guess…

    sangeetha

    December 15, 2010 at 6:31 pm

  7. @abhi thnx for the follow, i dont know if its possible not to be an introvert for an introvert person..lets c how things go..@nothing.. yeh ppl are tools, but i feel uncomfy to use those tools..@sangee.. kerala has been boring, nothing wrong with the place its just that i dont have the right kind of company here..yes its from tht movie..since i m now in kerala so changed the pic that cud relate to the place.. and gd to see you back after a long time..

    The Generalist

    December 15, 2010 at 6:58 pm

  8. well atleast you are posting,,,,,but yeah something intrinsic in u seems to have changed…..hang in there dude,,,,,,,p.s. i have taken a page out of ur book, got into anonymous blogging to deal with the problems of my life….thanx for showing the way

    masked4eternity

    December 18, 2010 at 11:21 pm

  9. Hey !We all have such phases… 🙂

    The Wizardspost

    December 19, 2010 at 10:52 am


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