For a change
I generally dont write when i dont feel like writing, but for a change i have just started writing to see what would i write if i dont have anything to write and when i m not in a mood to write. I m just sometimes amazed at the how i managed to write all this while, its like 3 years i have been writing. I have done nothing for such a long time. My interests never lasted for more than a month in anything. To speak the truth i m really glad that i started writing, so much of thoughts would have gone to waste. Some times i wander back into my blogs, and realize if i hadnt written things i would have forgotten most of things that happened in my life. I just wish i had started writing a long back, actually i had a blog previously at this blog service called rediffland or something, there were a few blog posts i wrote when i was going through one of the most exciting phases, when all of our dropout group was unemployed and only thing we did was wander.
Sadly everyone has to grow and face life, take up jobs and fuck their lives, why dont we have this social security thing, the govt should take care of the expenses of people who dont want to work na. I would have choosen that, the little time we have, we spend working, thats full to shit.
Still R1 and R2 call asking when i m visiting them, they still think i will be visiting them, sometimes i wish but dont think it will happen anytime soon, threesome uncle calls too, told him i might visit in feb. Told friends might visit in Jan on Uttrayan but that wont be possible, but feb might work.
Recently started playing football with the people here, i thought this would be the best thing to do if i had to open up fast, they had been calling for a long time but this time when they asked i said yes. its fun but considering that last time i played foot ball was in 8th standard and never did anything physical till now means that its straining the body. Bought those football shoes, last time i wore a shoe was in school. so things are really changing. Only thing that i need to do now is to find a good company for evening drinks, atleast some one who drinks twice a week and talks a lot. I like listening to people when drinking its fun. And once this is done i can say i m settled socially. Actual settlement will happen only when things get streamlined in financial terms.
Would have defaulted in credit card bills this time but at the right moment they upgraded my card. Which strengthens my belief that fate is on my side, it has been always like this at the brink of collapse there would always be some unexpected help that life throws at me. Only on that belief i had taken such a big risk this time, its an aar ya paar ka game, if it works i will be settled else back to square one.
Sister has gone to kollam for coaching in bank PO exams, so has some interviews scheduled in jan and feb and we all are going with her, i never traveled with my family, it feels ajeeb to tag along with parents like a child when i m already aged enuf to have a set of childrens. Back then i never went with them, because it was better to stay back and have fun with friends. since i havent made any worthwhile friends yet, i chose to go with them. Will be visiting chennai, thiruvananthapuram, ernakulam, havent visited those places so it will be good to see new places, i take lot of pics these days, so this travel would be great.
as i see things really have changed, externally and internally and hope to get along with them..
Conclusion. actually you can write a lot when you dont have anything to write at all.
P.S. The picture signifies the different path that life throws at us, took at some railway station sometime back. After i lost my last mobile i realised its important take backups of the pictures, because you cant possibly take the same picture again, something would have changed.