|The road ahead and manzil waiting.
Ask me about the celebrations for 31st, i was alone watching Alice in wonderland and had run out of stocks of cigarettes and tobacco. So just got the dose of nicotine and started writing. I didnt expect anything as by general rule of my life, these special days have never worked. I was to go to ernakulam yesterday ( i mentioned about the upcoming trips for sis’s exams), and the reason i didnt go was that i have been hurt by all those running after the foot ball. Something has happened to both my knees, i m unable to bend them since last week. I think its because of running and all, something ajeeb has happened, its not the normal muscle developing pain but alag kind. Playmates are thinking what a baccha i m, sitting at home because of normal pain, but its not the normal pain, its a different one, hope it takes care of itself soon, as you know i dont go to doctors unless its gand fucking emergency.
The new year starts with heavy financial burden, which feels good because its kinda different, there had been garibis in the past but i never went into so much debt, today i will be using up the last chillars left in credit card to recharge dishtv and from next month all payments are going to bounce, does that worry me? yeh it does but then the very next moment i stop worrying because there is nothing that i can do but to wait and watch my own ruination, in what a magnificent way everything is crumbling, what a rhythm, what music. But i m not feeling afraid, thou i should be by now. Have i grown above all these, or have i lost my mind, why so much indifference. I m cool and playing cityville all day, time pass. May be i m not worried is because i m hoping for a miracle, or i just know it as a matter of fact that some miracle is going to happen.
I have big time hopes for this year, because everything is new this time. New place, new people, new targets and a new phase. It almost feels new, as if i m just born. Anyway its start of a new decade so before the end of this decade i have to become rich or take sanyas, no middle options. I have always wanted to be rich like every one else but somewhere in the middle i dropped that idea, i thought k its easy not being rich and life is much simpler with less money, u just need to enjoy with whatever little you have. But now its not like that, i have become materialistic again, may be its the water and surrounding or may be its my garibi that has made me materialistic. I know its the second one..
Inpic: In the picture its my mom and dad, the picture portrays the rahi and manzil concept, you can look at it in any way, you could either be waiting for manzil or you can walk towards it, you will reach it anyway.